Birthday

I am still in the process of planning Marley's first birthday party. My original plan was to have it on Saturday, August 1st some time in the afternoon. But when I thought about it, I couldn't decide what time to have it. When she naps depends on what time she wakes up in the morning. And she never wakes up at the same time two days in a row. So, I decided to change it to Friday evening. If we have it around 5ish, she will be rested and have enough energy to entertain everyone.

I want to have the party at our new house, so I hope that will work out, too. Annie will be at her new home by then, and we can find somewhere for Kima for the evening so that she's not in the way. Asa wants to grill something for everyone to eat, and I am going to try to bake a super special cake. I want one for all the guests and then I want to make Marley her own cake that she can dig into. I hope she likes it... she has never been adventurous with food. So this week is going to be busy planning all of this. I have to decide what we want to cook, send invitations, learn how to make a fancy cake, clean the house, figure out where everyone will sit, and buy every thing we need.

I am so excited, but I don't want to admit how old she will be. So many things have changed and I can't believe how quickly it all happened. It breaks my heart to think about how I can never go back and live any of those days again. I miss newborn Marley. I miss three month old Marley. I am so glad she and I have such a great bond though. She is my life and I want to make sure her's is the best it can possibly be. The past few weeks have been so distracting with moving and unpacking and organizing. I feel like I have missed out on things, even though she has been with me the whole time. I just need to remember that nothing is more important than her. Seeing her smile and playing on the floor with her are such simple things, but they are at the top of the priority list. Because we don't get this day back.